Wednesday, October 31, 2012

A Setting Change

I was notified by two readers, via Facebook, that my blog setting had turned to private. It means that some of you probably have not been able to access my blog the last few days. I'm really sorry about that! It should be good to go now, and tonight I hope to have Halloween pictures to post! 

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Fading of Fall

My favorite season is quickly leaving me, and I have let it pass me by this year. I have been so busy with life that fall has seemingly come and gone. I look outside my window and see that most of the trees in my neighborhood are now bare, prepared for the winter chill, and I'm quite sad about this. Normally, this time of year for me is a time of picture taking, open windows, and pumpkin farms. This year, however, it has been a time of busy life happenings: doctors appointments, things related to David's work, lots of chores, extra naps, illnesses, and just being overall too busy to stop and enjoy the beauty of the season.

Thinking of fall passing me by, I realized that there is one tradition that David and I used to do all the time before we got married but have not done once since being married: carving pumpkins. I totally miss it. We used to each pick out a pattern from one of the books, enlarge it to our pumpkin's size, and carve away until we had some pretty awesome jack-o-lanterns. But for the past few years, we haven't even bought a single pumpkin, let alone carved one. I think the mess and time of it has recently outweighed the finished product to us which really saddens me. I feel like it's about time we reinstate the pumpkin carving tradition simply because it makes me happy in the end, and I can cook the pumpkin seeds (the funny thing is I don't even like the taste of pumpkin seeds, but I love to bake them).

This realization about the pumpkins led me to think of what else we need to do that we simply have never done together: apple picking. I love  the idea of apple picking, and I have never done it. I just have this desire to go and pick my own apples then come home and make a dozen different products with the fresh produce. I don't know why this idea is so appealing to me, but I imagine it has something to do with reminding me of many colonial literature books I read when I was a kid. It just sounds romantic, fun, and organic.

So, I'm hoping that before fall is over, we can at least carve pumpkins this year. And my goal is that next year or possibly the year after that we will finally go apple picking! I'll let you know how these goals turn out, but hopefully there will be cute pictures of jack-o-lanterns covering my next blog post!

Wishing all my friends and family a wonderful remainder of this beautiful season! Enjoy it while it lasts because the cold and snow is coming soon! :) 

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Confession #3

Confession #3: I am NOT consistent in many things in my life...

As you can tell from my lack of posting recently, consistency is not my forte. I admit this, and I struggle with it on a regular basis. Trying to get a routine down is very difficult for me, and truthfully the fact that my treatments are done every single day is pretty impressive!  I have tried getting into routines, and I have failed miserably.  Really, any advice or tips I will happily take!!

So what have I been up to? Sleeping a lot. It's about all I do right now. I think it is due in part to the changing of the seasons. I'm feeling the need to hibernate, and I've been extremely cold recently. I also have been spending time doing things around the house, reading, and watching a lot of mindless TV. Yes, I've been lazy!!

Tomorrow I don't get to be lazy though. I have my CF appointment, and I just hope that my lung function is still good. I haven't been exercising as much recently (shame on me), and I really need to get back into it. I just hope that my lack of effort doesn't show too terribly on my PFTs. 

Monday, October 1, 2012

Confession #2

My second confession is that I rarely ever remember my dreams.

If I do remember my dreams, they are usually sad, frightening, or just plain strange. Out of the dreams I do remember, I can count on one hand the number of them that were really nice. I also don't have recurrent dreams like many do. Being married to someone who does have recurrent bad dreams, I'm glad I don't have to experience the same dream again and again.

As far as the subjects of my dream go, they are often about losing people in my life or being chased by a vicious killer, or a bunch of randomness thrown together. Just last night, however, I believe I had the saddest dream I've had in a long time.

I dreamt that I could never have children last night. I've never had this dream, but it was so sad and discouraging. I remember feeling extreme sadness and despair in my dream, and I was breaking the news to my parents with tears rolling down my cheeks. I woke up overwhelmed with sadness, and I'm still finding it hard to shake this dream from my memory. It was incredibly sad, and I sincerely hope it doesn't end up becoming a reality.

So after today, I'm somewhat glad I don't remember many of my dreams, because this one was just too depressing!