Monday, July 8, 2013

The First Seven Weeks

My dearest Sydney,

These first seven weeks have simply flown by faster than I ever imagined. I always listened when others would tell me that having children makes the time go by so quickly, but I didn't fully grasp that until now. I wake up with you around 6 AM each morning, and suddenly it is 10 PM and I'm unsure of where the hours between even went.

It's hard to believe there was a time before you were born. I remember constantly wondering who you would look like.

It's pretty obvious that a good chunk of time goes toward just staring at your beautiful face as you eat, sleep, and play. You make the sweetest faces I've ever seen, and you are now starting to smile which means that I'm enamored by you even more. The rest of my time is spent making and cleaning bottles, pumping, burping, changing, feeding, and talking to you while we tour different areas of the house. Somehow, I still manage to remember to eat and do my treatments, but even life's necessities seems trivial in comparison to watching you.

As the time has flown, I've learned so many new things. I've learned how fast the days go and how long the nights can be. I've discovered that 3 AM is my favorite time because it's just me and you in your drowsy but happy state. I've understood what it means to worry endlessly, and love more powerfully than I could ever have imagined. I've regained my sense of wonder and excitement as I begin to see everything through your eyes. I watch you stare in awe at the world around you, and I think to myself that if everyone had a little Sydney to watch the world with there simply would be no war. I've found my arms are stronger than I thought as I carry you around for hours to soothe you and quench my own selfish desires. I've felt pain when you've felt pain, and I've felt utter relief when the pain dissipated. Most of all, however, I've learned that no matter what you do in this life and no matter what happens from this point forward, I will always love you more than life itself. You are my precious miracle, and I know I am blessed beyond belief.

 A little cuteness until the next post (birth story).


  1. Wow! Just did some catching up on your blog and congrats! I can't believe it's already been 7 weeks since you had your beautiful baby girl! I can completely relate about time passing so quickly. I was able to take 10 weeks off work with our boys and they will be 3 months old on Friday. Time goes WAY too quickly! Monica and I still will sit and look at pictures or watch videos of them when they were born and miss holding them when they were so little. They grow up fast! I'm glad to hear everything is going good and you and baby are doing well! I hope the therapy for little Sydney is helping! Congrats again!!

  2. Thank you so much, Jeremy! It's been the fastest (now eight) weeks of my life! I can't believe your boys will be three months on Friday! I agree about the pictures/videos. I was just looking at her newborn videos and thinking, "how have you grown so much already?" I'm so glad that we have both gotten to experience such a beautiful blessing thanks to modern medicine!


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